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VSG Experience

Before Gastric Sleeve

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“It didn’t matter to me that I was killing myself”.

It has been about a year since my stomach was reduced to the size of a small banana. I remember last year, I had finished a huge meal at a 4th of July celebration and was already having buyers remorse even before I had the surgery. The thought of not being able to dig into a huge hamburger, a side of mashed potatoes, corn on the cob, pasta salad, and finishing it off with a cold beer — sounded inconceivable and horrible!!

It didn’t matter to me that I was killing myself. My list of ailments were long for a 40 year old man. 

List of Ailments:

  • Sleep Apnea
  • High Blood Pressure
  • Pre-Diabetic
  • Fatty Liver

When I was young, I was never particularly big, in-fact I was pretty short and scrawny. I graduated high school at 130 lbs. at 5 ft. 5 in. My metabolism was fast! I could eat anything…well until I got to college. The “freshman 15″ turned into 30 lbs. and by the time I graduated undergrad I had grown to 190 lbs. Two years later when I was graduating with my Masters degree I had gained 20 more pounds. Somehow I was still able to catch the eye of a beautiful girl that said yes to marrying me. At her 110 lbs. on a 5’2” frame, we made a perfect 10!


The Diets!

I have tried them all. The Adkins, Weight Watchers, low calorie, lettuce and water. They all worked to lose weight but when I got down to my goal weight, which was usually to get under the “overweight” category on the Body Mass Index, I would find it difficult to get past 170 lbs. 170 lbs. according to BMI is 28.3, anything over 25 is considered overweight. Don’t get me wrong, I was way healthier at 28.3 BMI than I was at my surgery BMI of 37.3 with morbid conditions, but it was never where I saw myself. There were times when I got under 170…even hitting 155 once, but it was SO HARD to stay at that weight. I was always hungry and the amount of working out that I had to do took all of my free time. It became a second job! So what do people do when they get into a job that they hate? They quit! And that is what I did. I just quit and fed myself, and it felt good to me. I found comfort in the food, it filled a void and made me feel better, even if I was very stressed with work or personal relationships…it was there to comfort me.

What is funny, is that when I was in “losing mode,” I could turn off the emotional need for food, but when I wasn’t losing, I felt stuck and would go back like a food junkie. Well, that is what I was…I was addicted to food. I guess now, I am a recovering addict, but I still worry that I will fall back into that “I don’t care!” mode.

A Year Later

I will definitely chronicle my experiences and the things I learned over the year in other posts, but here I want to mention how things are different.

I’m happy to say that shattered my 170 lower limit! I am currently 114 lbs…that is 110 lbs down from my surgery weight of 224.

I look forward to sharing through this blog…please share your experiences. Also, I’d be happy to answer any questions I can.

No more morbid conditions!

Current Weight
Body Mass Index
Pant Waist Size

Musician, Educator, Social Entrepreneur, and Blogger Rey started this blog to chronical his Weight Loss Surgery. His surgery date was July 10, 2018


  • Nicholas Rudelich

    Thank you so much for these words. I had surgery 1 week ago and was really struggling yesterday with the holiday and def some buyers remorse. This is such a mental battle right now. Extremely hard. Keep thinking I could have starved myself without this. Why have I done this to myself. Food is sooo social and everything revolves around it and I feel I will never enjoy it again. I too have tried diets for 19 years now and only ended up bigger.
    I have very low energy right now which dosent help. Hoping it comes back, just hard to believe with eating so little.
    I needed this today.

    • Rey Ramirez

      Nicholas, hang in there. It does get better and easier. I know one week out and I was in horrible pain and felt like I had huge FOMO from what was going around me. I am glad it spoke to you. I will be putting more post up soon. I know you have heard this, but sip and walk.

  • Judy Bradby

    Inspiring! I’m prepping for my journey and I’m seeking out the best blogs/support groups, recipes, tips before I even get my banana. 😂
    This is easily the most articulate blog I’ve come across and I’ll be back! Surgery will be September!

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